well, I guess that's it!!!
Lately, the only words that come to mind are, Freedom, Difficulties and of course the phrase that I've been  saying to anyone since this holler coaster has started: What should I do?
There's no right or wrong in this case, only challenges that are here to prove to me that I'm grow-up right now and issues appear all time and the best way to make them go away is facing them, I know, it's hard, but let's go for it.
I feel a little sad about because I know that at some point I may regret this, because I'm already doing this or maybe I would only think that was a simple dream and I will wake up in some other country looking for I'm looking for even right now.
I feel like I'm not doing what I want, like I'm in a prison right now and most of all I'm only 23, and I feel like my life has been passing through my eyes and slipping around my fingers because I don't know what to do and how to control it.
I don't want to accept that everything is over but I don't want to suffer and feel lonely again, maybe I'm scared, maybe I'm just dramatic or maybe I'm starting to feel things that I shouldn't feel, especially for a person that I don't know quite well or that I'm only inventing, maybe I'm in love with me and the person that I would be if I were him and how I like people to treat me, because I love a romance in a kiss, in a touch and I don't have that and I believe people don't know how I miss this in a relationship, maybe this was the reason that the first one lost me and I guess he has been losing me for a long time, my issue with that is the fact that I don't know how to be real with my feelings.

I have been in a hollercoaster, and being honest I don't know quite well what it's happening, maybe I'm starting to feel the pressure of being in long relationships for so long, I didn't have my teen years, well, in a way, I had, but it feels like I haven't done what I wanted and what I want right now.
The worst part of course, it's the fact that I don't know how to end up with this confusion in my head, it seems like my head is spinning more and more each day.
What should I do?? bring me action, bring me what I don't have, ooooo gosh, it's so harsh.